in another time, in another place...

i'll never forget how it started, my smiles at your silly jokes that no one else will laugh at
how i try not to look at you though I know u're in the room
yet i know your eyes would be searching for u amongst the crowd,
i'd always smile with a blush when our eyes meet
and my heart skips a beat... it felt like time was in slow motion...
there was so much expressed in those few seconds, even though nothing was said
those long rides in the car, mindless chats that always seems to end too soon
late night phonecalls and text messages...
keeping us anticipating, yet hesitating to reply too brashly
all this while my heart flutters... i never know it could feel this way
i thought after all i've been thru, i have become the wisest of women
and i shall not be fooled by my emotions again...
if only that was true

beneath all this sweetness and romantic intimacy...
an ominous unease brews... for a while, it was clouded out by our puppy love-like excitement
but we knew one day we must pay
which day would it be? we had no clue, and we didn't care, we just wanted each other... here and now
but slowly i awake... not from the feelings of loving you... but awakened to the consciousness that i had to let you go
even more so if i do love you
we both have things we must go back to... this forbidden sweetness must cease soon
despite my bleeding heart, i knew... i must let you go...

move on my love, I only wish we had met at a different time,
in another place...
make my sacrifice worthwhile...
for u, i have suffered an unbearable pain... not knowing when it will end
everytime i hear your name... it feels like someone sprinkled salt on my freshcut wound again...
can someone tell me why, after so long, the torture feels so fresh still...
i want so much to embrace you again... to feel your gentle fingers comb thru my hair and face...
to hear you speak gentle words of adoration to me, telling me how you have never felt the same for anyone else...
sometimes... between lines we share, i let slip a little of my dark secret... i hope you didn't catch it... but secretly i hoped you can tell... that i had never forgotten you...
do u feel the same way? I don't know... if you do... you hid it so well....
some nights i still cry... thinking of the things we could have shared...

but it is not to be... tho i wished... we could meet again... somehow...
in another time... another place...